Theese last days have been strange, i starting to see how interconnected we are. All those coincidences, that lead this to that, and so forth. Everything is changing everything. This is mindblowing to start with, but logical. Now is the sum of everything thats happened since the big bang, and maybe before that. It has been a force that has driven this energy to evolution, its like the energy of the universe wants to express itself in a evolutionary matter. For all i know we could still just be dead matterial, but no, coincidenses someone says is the reason that dead matter start to live. Ok its alive, but still it evolves, why, whats driving it. whats the it? All im sayin is the it could be a vaaast chain of coincidences or a energy that wants to push beyond dead matter. Energy thats wants to live, seak not only the the path of least resistanse, but the path with the most resistanse. The path with least resistance would be just to be, but still we are still becoming. Im trying to blend in, spiritual, sceptic and science in here to air my thoughts. I feel i need to write this down so i can view it myself. Anyway, let say it started with a big bang, thats equal to that we are moving like a projectile trough space. And yet they are saying we are accelerating....if we have been accelerating sice we was shot out of that kaboom, how fast are we really moving, and where? We are living in a middle of a science fiction movie... What am i gonna tell my kids, if i have one. That u see, we dont know where we are, what we really are made of, we dont know how big it is, how old it is, but we know we are living on a planet thats orbiting that light up there, and we are flying troug space at incredible speeds. And looking back in the history of humans doesnt make me a bit smarter on what and why we are. Seems like we evolved out of a fairytale, and hell. At the same time. Time is also a funny invented word. We are actually trying to measure moments in this existence, it may be practical, but in the big picture its nonsense. or maybe not. It would seem like the odds for this is happening is equal to winning the lottery 100 times a day since you where born, till u die. And still some more. Its a mysterious miracle. And why did the universe decided that freewill was the best way to evolve, when we see the we are the only ones fukkin up the nature, (witch was a perfectly designed system). With programs working toghether, for them selves, but for the maintaining of this planet. There is a reson for us, and this. And the answer is on the way. Now universe can speak to itself(as us). And we are saying many interesting things, so im exited, and i got a feeling, that something has just started, even it started looong time ago. There is no such thing as a coincindece in the bigger picture. Every chaos has a pattern in the bigger picture. And we are finding the bigger picture as a observing part of the universe. WOW