Here goes.... fasten your seat belts..... he he he ♥
The purpose of living is learning and growing and sharing ... for me anyway.
So what kind of person would I be if I had learnt all these wonderful lessons in life and not shared them so other people may learn from them.
If I touch somebody's heart/soul with this blog and encourage them to LOVE themselves a bit more then I am HAPPY and I have done my job ; ) ♥
(BTW this is a very short version... i'm keeping the rest for a book) LOL
I am 33 years old now and I have just had the BEST year of my life to date (numerology could have told me that was going to happen - look it up)
I have also been told recently from a medium that I am going through my 'mid life crisis' at the moment... which makes me laugh because compared to my past this is a doddle. LOL ♥
Over the years I have had two forms of Depression; Anti-Natal (rare apparently, so I was told by my midwives) and Post Natal.
I was on Valium and various other anti depressant drugs/medication from the doctors even whilst I was pregnant too... the second time around (Anti-Natal)
(A lot of this had to do with being in domestic violence relationships)
To me the drugs only postpone ANY unhappiness you go through it DOES NOT CURE IT (unless in very rare cases your depression is severe and on a short term basis it MAY help)
Sometimes the proffesionals you go to for the 'last resort' help... Don't help either... that's another story in itself!
I have been to A LOT of councilers over the years, I think I resonated with one of them!
It is difficult to open up to someone once a week for an hour... it puts a lot of pressure on yourself to 'perform'.
I found that I was counciling myself most of the time. Sometimes THEY would cry and feel sorry for me... (one midwife did that too!?) I don't know where they did thier training, but then they are only human I suppose!!?? Ha!
I always thought that Depression stays with you for life and you can never escape it BUT now I have found that YOU CAN ESCAPE IT when you change the way you think about yourself and your lilfe then it's impossible for it to ever take over you again unless you let it!
IT IS NOT EASY... NO WAY... there are certain steps/stages you have to go through (a bit like grieving) and you DO need people to steer you in the right direction most of the time (proffessionally, family, friends ANYone really)... but ultimately it is YOU that needs to make that change (Michael Jackson song came in my head then) LOL
I've had a lot of 'life experience' as I call it now, 'it could always be worse' is what got me through most of the time and what my children and family would do if I didn't cope with it all/life - that meant MORE to me than anything.
It is the BEST lesson you can EVER teach your children - How to overcome problems in your life.
They will carry that forward to adulthhood and thank you SO much for that lesson when they have to face dilemma's themselves.
Teach them that things CAN change... it is never too late!
I don't like to admit it but I have 'contemplated' suicide/giving up (once, a long time ago now)
I was also on the brink of a nervous breakdown and 'nearly' let go of myself mentally.... I was 8 months pregnant.
These were 2 separate incidents and lot of years appart.
After A LOT of self healing..... I am HAPPY now... and will ALWAYS be... WooooHooooo! ♥
I have finaly learnt to LOVE myself and that has opened me up to trust people again and let people Love me back! It is a wonderful feeling, one I never thought I was worthy of.
That doesn't mean I won't ever feel pain or sorrow or grief or have bad days or feel sad BUT it is HOW I chose to deal with these emotions that is different. BALANCE is the key believe me ♥
You are ALL so much more loved than you ever think you are.... trust me ♥ Just let yourself feel it ♥
Thankyou for listening to me babble a bit and I hope it will encourage other people to 'open up'/share more, you never know YOUR experiences may encourage other people get help or change thier own lives.
NObody deserves to be put down, or feel like they are not worth it NObody!
♥ LIFE is a precious beautiful gift so MAKE THAT CHANGE ♥
♥ * * •...♥*♫...ॐ . * ♥ I wish you all lots of Love, Light, Peace & Balance ♥ * * •...♥*♫...ॐ . * ♥